August 25, 2010
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A Conversation With My LiveJournal Self
LiveJournal (LJ): hey…wassup…? Me: Hi, who’s this? LJ: it’s you! well…the you from 5-6 years ago when you were still writing on livejournal… Me: Oh wow! That’s pretty crazy! So, why are you contacting me right now? LJ: well…I was reading some of your posts from this past year and you seem…different…so I wanted to check up on you heh Me: How so? LJ: first off…why aren’t you updating everyday?! Me: I don’t feel like it’s necessary anymore. LJ: OF COURSE IT IS! don’t you remember? you were going to show your future kids all your posts so they can see what your life was like! if you don’t record every single event that happen throughout your day they’re going to miss out!! …heh Me: Why did you add that? LJ: what? Me: That “…heh”? LJ: hmm…I don’t know…it’s just my thing… Me: You know, you really don’t have to add the “…” after everything either. LJ: how else will I show that I’m thinking…? Me: Urgh, nevermind. Anyway, back to what we were talking about earlier. Trust me, I don’t think my future kids will be missing out much if I don’t record every single thing. It gets kind of repetitive and tedious, you know? LJ: I suppose…
Me: Stop that!
LJ: alright… chill man…lets change subjects… still chatting with the folks from the Chinese Student Association over on xanga right…?
Me: Actually, not really.
LJ: seriously…wasn’t that one of the reasons you started writing over there in the first place?
Me: It was, but since then most of the people have stopped updating.
LJ: that’s so strange…so who do you talk with then?
Me: Mostly some people I’ve met through Xanga.
LJ: ….what?? you’re talking to strangers? heh, that’s sooooo weird! …and they read your posts?
Me: I’m pretty sure they do.
LJ: THAT’S SOOO SCARY! how did they find you?! they must be all stalkers….
Me: No, it isn’t like that at all! They’re cool people and I’ve even met up with a lot of them too.
LJ: WTF?? …you wanna die?? heh
Me: No…great, you got me doing that “…” now.LJ: feels good right? ….you still talk with your babe at least…yes?
Me: Who?
LJ: you know…your gf…?
Me: Oh, her. We’re just friends now. We broke up a while back.
LJ: …WHAT!!! why?? she’s your amazing, wonderful girl! your baby! the best thing that ever happened to you! olive juice, remember that?
Me: Please, stop with the cheesy talk. Trust me, when you read some of the stuff you have written you’re probably going to gag.
LJ: w/e man…I’m just being the sweet romantic guy I am heh…
Me: Urgh please stop that. Anyway yeah, breaking up did suck, but I’ve grown a lot as a person since then. You’ll understand later.
LJ: hmm…you know…I HAVE been thinking about a lot of what ifs with her…like what if she’s not the one? what if there’s someone better?
Me: Oh buddy. I should stop you now, but if I did you won’t learn later on.
LJ: what are you talking about…
Me: You’ll find out in a year or so. Just enjoy your time for now. Try not to take anything she does for granted, alright?
LJ: um, ok…wow I barely recognize you…er, me…
Me: We’re not too different, you and me. I still enjoy tennis and movies.
LJ: yay that’s good…
Me: I still think Penelope Cruz and Jessica Alba are hot.
LJ: duh, of course!
Me: and I still think green tea is amazing.
LJ: woohooo…hey… how’s the hair?
Me: I think it looks better currently than before. No offense.
LJ: nah no way…the overly wet-looking geled hair style is where it’s at! I’ll never change that!
(Me circa 2005) Oh yes you will naive boy.Me: Mhmm. Well hey, it was nice talking to you but I have to head out now.
LJ: ok…seeing your new gf right?
Me: Actually no, I’m not seeing anyone right now.
LJ: whoa really…? that’s pretty depressing man…
Me: Don’t worry, it was rough at first but after a while it’s not the worse thing in the world like I, er you, used to think.
LJ: I don’t know how you go about life without your amazing gorgeous better half there to complete you…
Me: I said stop with that cheesy talk! Wow, was I really that annoying sounding?
LJ: …hey I’m still here!
Me: My bad. Okay, I’ll cya later. *signs off*LJ: ….hmm…I kinda liked the future me…as strange as he is. hmm…I haven’t cryptically posted up song lyrics on my blog lately. Time to go do that! I’m soooo clever heh… *signs off*
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Post partly inspired by this article. Yes, I used to write and think like that. I’m sorry.
Comments (90)
LOL I love this post. Don’t worry, when I read back on the things I wrote a few years ago, I cringe too. It’s practically required for everyone to go through a phase where they just constantly sound corny and annoying.
You should bring back the cryptic song lyrics
heh. nice hair, Spike.
Me sounds like LJ’s wiser older brother.
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<3 love it. haha
i enjoy how you totally cropped out that girl.
man you sounded like a bitch 5-6 years ago and you still are today. ZING!!! jk. but seriously… you do meet a lot of weird strangers on xanga like @ordinary_gir1 - …. ::thumbs up::
This made me smile.
Man, I should look for my old livejournal. I don’t think I updated much at all, but it’s bound to be kicking around.
Cheers,
Taylor
lol @ olive juice…nice.
you look like your little bro in those pics!
OMG I used to LJ too! And I used to talk like you as well. I wonder if I can still log into my LJ. I think my name was phatty_girl or something like that LOL!
lol. oh god. i don’t like to read my old posts. i sounded like a ten year old girl. ):
Hahahah I relate to this a lot.
…heh
lol! This was hilarious!! Im totally guilty of the “…” i just cant help myself sometimes…
@CuaSo - If you look back at my first few pulses that’s all I used pulses for!
@TheBigShowAtUD - Don’t touch, it will cut you!
@eternal_relevance - ……..
@ordinary_gir1 - Guess who it was?
@sonychak - The weirdest have been those from the west coast, which makes it weird why I keep going over there to visit. Does that make me a weirdo?
@skylar_rose - That was only my 2004-2005 version! I couldn’t bear to read myself before then. I sounded MUCH worse!
@remiblanc0 - Used to say it too eh?
@kaiori - oh man, that’s not good!
@getyourownsandwich - That used to be my main journal until I found more people I knew IRL on Xanga. My has time have changed!
@JessxMaxine - I only made it up to my 2004 version before I had to stop. I was much worse before then!
@Iobot - Funny how we used to think that was a cool way to write =P
@Eternalimplosion - I still use that at times, but man I abused it before!
@Roadlesstaken - To the lamp in my room. Olive juice lamp!
@Roadlesstaken - It still beats getting stuck in a conversation with one’s !!~~{!!! ’90s AmEriCa OnLiNe // AzN PrYdE !!!}~~!! self.
I would punch my old self.. Lyke 0MgSZ!!
Great post!
@howsthewheather - Yikes, you were one of those eh?? Aiya =P
@remiblanc0 - That lamp must treat you so well.
@Roadlesstaken - It does. But that actually was a reference to the movie Anchorman
hahah don’t worry about the hair, it was the popular Asian hairstyle back then.
And when I read back on the stuff I’ve written, I cringe. hahah I would go back and private all those posts, but I unfortunately wrote too many useless blogs so I’m too lazy to go back and do it for all of them. XD
I was imagining you talking to the mirror while reading this…kinda weird but it does help to talk to oneself sometimes.
My epic 7th Xanga-Birthday is coming up. I used to talk about everything.
LOL… I was just about to say that it reminded me of that College Humor link of the “12 yr old me”. We all sound kinda cheesy back in the day, I can relate to that (:
lol, i know i change when i first start writting on xanga. but i don’t know if i can create a old self talking to the new self. coool concept
@dUhGrL - It really was. I used to not want to go out until all my hair was properly gelled up!
@stupid_systemus - Not anymore?
@Keeko1 - You’re a collegehumor fan too?
@vsan79 - I just kinda analyzed my writing style before and the things I thought were important, than tried to emulate it. Not too hard I think.
@Roadlesstaken - I talked about what happened with my day a lot. Like what happened that day.
Cool hair :p
Lol, too funny! I always laugh when I read my old Xanga from 05-07, with my heavy metal Metallica background, thinking I was so cool. My old myspace is just as bad. Its reminiscent of looking back at old yearbooks. Hey- grunge was awesome in the mid-nineties! -*M*
Very intresting!
. Your hair wasn’t THAT uncool before, although slightly >_>;;. At least you didn’t have a 90′s quiff? XP.
i love this.
this was pretty great alex. I enjoyed seeing how the old alex used to talk and behave. also it is always fun to go back and read your old posts and see how you’ve grown.
Oh, it is funny how we’ve changed over the years, isn’t it? That’s probably the most interesting thing for your future children to see.
that must be a lot of gel.
awesome post =)
damn. I was always just so emotional. always a bit embarrassing to re-read yourself, but also enlightening! Always good to know we change..
@HeLLo_Bianca - I don’t think so XP
@nerdyveggiegirl - Metallica girl eh? I wouldn’t have guessed that!
@whoosh90 - what was the 90′s quiff? Maybe I did have it once.
@smi1eee - @Dobserver - Thanks!
@indiechaos - The old Alex didn’t scare you away?
@christao408 - Indeed. I figure if I did show them my old posts they can get a general idea of how I was without the whole day to day synopsis
@goodbyedinner - Oh it was. Too much.
@KyohakuMegami - I have always been one to think too much. Nowadays I’m better at writing more coherently I think.
@Roadlesstaken - http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/7/7e/Quiff2.jpg/220px-Quiff2.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.srilankadot.com/wiki-Quiff&usg=__kxhGy6OEedG20qEA-fRtCCTaxu4=&h=293&w=220&sz=16&hl=zh-TW&start=0&zoom=1&tbnid=PZUsQl0K6z2m4M:&tbnh=154&tbnw=115&prev=/images%3Fq%3D90s%2Bquiff%26um%3D1%26hl%3Dzh-TW%26biw%3D1024%26bih%3D587%26tbs%3Disch:10%2C17&um=1&itbs=1&iact=hc&vpx=138&vpy=194&dur=16&hovh=234&hovw=176&tx=120&ty=133&ei=P4l2TMamC9DXcfr7haYG&oei=JIl2TK3FBceXcdOcxeIF&esq=4&page=1&ndsp=17&ved=1t:429,r:5,s:0&biw=1024&bih=587
hhahaha.. interesting conversation
btw, i wonder what you mean by wishing there’s someone better etc.. i know this is kinda personal but, i somehow wish that too and i never stop.. so, what did u do?
@whoosh90 - Oh boy, I think I did try that at one point. It didn’t last that long.
@yan_ni - Here’s a post I wrote about it: http://roadlesstaken.xanga.com/705368570/oh-those-what-ifs/
oh no! olivejuice!
@Roadlesstaken - I always wanted to try it but my parents disapproved. Kinda glad they did, looking back on it it was pretty damn lame. XD.
@Roadlesstaken - can it be an ex!ÉÉ!
@Prim_Prim4488 - You know about that too eh?
@ordinary_gir1 - Maybe…
you know, just for you, Alex, i’m going to do something really nice for everyone. they should all thank you.
@TheBigShowAtUD - what may that be?
consider it an exit interview.
@Roadlesstaken - old alex probably would have been more afraid of me :]
Naive! Mm… naive!
Excellent post dude. I have a Xanga that I blogged on A LOT back in 05-06. Everytime I go back and see what 20 year old Gravy thinks I want to hurl, but I leave it on there as a private page because I can’t leave it.
Ha, this is funny! I can identify; I was on livejournal for quite a while pre-xanga as well
@ItIsAllGravy - Same here. I’ve thought of the idea of deleting the old yucky stuff, but something about them does not allow me to.
@webofsimplicity - That was where my first blog started =)
HAHA this is cool! Amazing how things can change over the years. I hate looking back at my old xanga entries because I tYpEd LiKe ThIs. >< I’d find my old self annoying, ridiculous.
Wow. That was a really long conversation. My conversations with my self usually end after about three sentances… as I get easily distracted by my wandering mind.
haha this is cute :]
yea i agree thou.. when you look back its kinda funny to see how you writeim still a kid thou so in a few years when i look back againill probably laugh at my writing now
This makes me rethink my blogging! Maybe I don’t really need to record what I do when I go out. HMM…
@Roadlesstaken - lol, I have a Metallica ninja star tattooed on the back of my right calf
Plus a skull & cross bones on the back of my left calf, and a flaming skull on my left shoulder. I took out all of my piercings years ago tho, lol. The nerdy asian girl look distracts from the grown-up punk girl I used to be 
@MiSZ_C0MPASSi0NAT3 - Wasn’t it annoying to type that way? How did you know when to capitalize and stuff? Or was it random?
@Aloysius_son - Was gonna be longer, but I cut it short haha
@Mizlilaznduckie - hey you’re from my home state! Yeah, my 17 year old blogging self was even more different than the above.
@karen0z - Haha, do you consciously think you have to?
@Roadlesstaken - Not that I have to. I just always did it as a way to remember what I did. XD
so, you have left the “…” altogether?
that sucks man…
by the way, who’s the girl you were hugging there? is that the gf?
if i have to write something like this, it will be a conversation with my old friendster, heh…
@maniacsicko - Not altogether, it still has its place. I just don’t abuse it like I used to. Yup, that was the old gf.
the voices in your head are talking to you again? better get that checked out.
@ch10n9 - I’M NORMAL!!!
You left your xangan self at LJ and became a true blogger here! Awesome! At least… you don’t do… those, you know, very annoying periods anymore?!?! With repeated exclamation marks!?!? (periods annoy me, period).
Now someone needs to go tell a certain DJ that.
@christykim - I occasionally do them, but only when …. makes sense to use haha
@Roadlesstaken - Yes it was annoying. For some reason, I always capitalized my R’s, double my ii’s, and do something weird with double O’s. lol
Haha, that’s awesome! (:
If I wrote to my past self, my past self TyPeD LiKe DiS! Would not want a whole conversation with my 13 yr old self. >_>
It’s pretty interesting to see how our frames of mind change over time, though. Awesome post
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You’re one of the few Chinese dudes on Xanga that I like, Alex!
And I don’t mean like as in more than a friend… Heh. 
NIcely written! Great post. I have no idea how to respond without blurting out all the cliches!
It’s good to see that you’ve grown as a person over time. I think I would have changed, too. Good exercise in self-reflection.
@stepaside_loser - Cliches aren’t bad at times! Thank you =)
@spanishdaisy - Woohhooooo!! I feel special!
@phosphor_stars - Thanks. I think I would still follow your blog if you wrote like that…maybe =P
It’s nice to reflect back to see how much you have changed.
hmm your pictures look badass
I loved this. I should do something like this too, a lot of the things I’ve posted in the past make me cringe as well
@mindfulreflections - It is nice, even though sometimes I have to cringe when I saw how I used to write.
@Shades_of_Athena - what, my young pics?! Ehhh maybe haha
@jumpthenfly - If you do tag me so I’ll make sure I’ll see it!
This post reminds me of some of my earliest Xanga entries, where everything I wrote looked like this!!!!
LOL!! I can’t look back on them without cringing, but I loved this entry. Ah, past blogs…they’re bittersweet.
RYC: Thanks for the compliment!
It’s funny, up until two summers ago, I’d been wearing glasses practically since grade school–so no one noticed my eyes. And it feels like ever since I’ve started wearing contacts, I get a lot of, “Your eyes are so big!” maybe they assumed the glasses were magnifying them, before? haha
@Roadlesstaken - Hahaha… it’s okay. I’m constantly trying to improve in my writing and how to transfer my thoughts onto paper (in this case an online template).
oh my gosh.
this is amazing
“olive juice”
HAHAHAAA
post made me smile
@swtaznxtc90 - You know all about them olive juice too eh?
I love this idea lol. Very entertaining :]
Nice creative effort! I don’t think I’d be able to notice the differences between my past self and current self and emulate them, even if I tried.
@christykim - did you think you were really different?
@Roadlesstaken - Yes! That’s the problem… If I did try to mimic that self, I’d have to be a tad more insane and wander into the depths of sheer narcissistic obsessiveness… I’d also be embarrassed. But then again, you probably were, too, but you took it all in like a champ.
And I’m using the ellipses like there’s no tomorrow. Oh, curses.
Hey there. Thanks for commenting on my blog. Honestly, I didn’t expect anyone to find my page or want to read my entries. Xanga has always been more of a personal journal for me. I had another one but discontinued it because my ex-boyfriend kept reading my entries after he broke up with me–don’t know why he would when he was the one who broke up with me. In any case it was kind of depressing since I’ve had that old since 2003. =T
Anywho, I kinda just skimmed through your page lol, but I did read this particular entry. It was entertaining haha. I’m sure I’d get pissed at my younger self for being so awkward and dorky.
And yeah, it is Richmond, VA. I go to VCU but I’m really from Chesapeake/ Va Beach. I hear that NoVa is really nice. Most of my friends here are from there and always tell me how much cooler it is there than it is in the 757. Well, thanks for reaching out, I understand that a lot of my posts are boring x]
@iluvblwpops - Oh I can understand that. Blogs can bring back a lot of memories and you don’t want to associate yourself with it no more, so we move on to a fresh blog.
I know a couple of people at VCU through tennis. VA Beach is a nice area to visit. I had to go down there a few times this summer for my job. NoVA does have a lot of stuff! I’m still exploring it since I’ve only moved here 2 months ago.
Your posts are fine, no worries =) . Glad I found it through the recent update section!
@Roadlesstaken - Oh that’s cool! I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t know any of your friends since I’m just a sophomore and you’re much older lol and it’s a big school. x] but why you decide to move to VA?
@iluvblwpops - I just got a new job in VA and one of the stipulations was that I had to move here, so here I am! Fortunately I still live relatively close to my grad school and family’s house.
@Roadlesstaken - Well that’s exciting. Minus living really close to your parents house, which couldn’t always be a bad thing. If you’re too lazy to cook for yourself you can always see mom and dad lol. I, on the other hand, don’t have a car here in RVA, and living off-campus, I’m forced to cook/prepare my own meals. I’m sure you know the drill.
@iluvblwpops - Eh, I’m fine with my parents. I do like going back to make sure my little brother is doing alright. I like cooking my meals here. There’s a nice H-Mart nearby that I’ve been getting food from a lot. Great food, good deal!
This…is a brilliant idea. o.o