Yep, two more volumes this week!  There’s just too many secrets that were sent in.  After this week, I will bring it down to one volume per entry.  Please don’t hesitate to leave me some more anonymous secrets I can showcase for future editions down below.  For more information on how to submit a secret and how this all works, check out the previous XangaSecret entries:

What’s Your XangaSecret?
XangaSecret: Volume I and Volume II

Enjoy reading the following collection of secrets given by your fellow Xangans:

XangaSecret Volume III

XangaSecret Volume IV

RE: Sometimes, I think of ways to kill my niece!!! I’m a horrible person.

“you’re not alone…” -DiaryOfAPsychopath

RE: I think I’m in love with a 23-year-old man who found me through Xanga, looked up my name on Facebook, Facebook-friended me, and then said hi over AIM.  I now chat with him ever single day.  I’m 15 years old.

“I’ve been in the same situation [except we didn't meet through Xanga]. I’m 17 now, and we’re still friends. We’re just waiting until I turn 18 to consider any possibilities. So, have faith!” -Imnotcrazyjustinsane

“Just be careful. Don’t f**k up your life by talking to a guy who’s 8 years older than you that you have never met… Even if he is real, the difference in age will be a real barrier. Just be careful, please… think about what you’re doing.

I just had to say something because I’m super concerned for you… I did something similar at 15 and didn’t realize til later that the guy treated me like s**t. Don’t want you to go thru that.” -Anonymous (Laury)

RE: I met a Xangan IRL. I thought he was cool online, but now I think he’s a pervert and might even be a pedophile.

“I wonder if that pedobear slide was the next part of the 15 yr old and 23 yr old’s story.” -striemmy

I’ll be leaving for California tomorrow!  Yes, I’m sure that statement is probably very familiar to many of you seeing as this will be the 5th time I’ve traveled over to that state this year.  However, this time around I will be in NorCal (first time!) instead of SoCal.  I will be there from Christmas Day until New Years Day.  What will I’ll be doing during that time?  Well, here’s what I have planned so far (if you’re familiar with NorCal I’m open to suggestions for things to do and check out):

Friday, Dec 25th: Fly into Oakland, settle in over at relatives
Saturday, Dec 26th: Take a tour of San Francisco with xLove_Me_Alwaysx and elelkewljay hopefully.  If I’m lucky, I’ll be having dinner with fLiPgUy31O, subaru3169, snapeful, and jeannie_dot_com when they arrive in NorCal.
Sunday, Dec 27th:  South Bay Area Xanga meet!  Will be checking out all that San Jose has to offer.  Later that evening I will also be sleeping in the same hotel with fLiPgUy31O, subaru3169, snapeful, and jeannie_dot_com .  Slumber party?
Monday, Dec 28th: 2nd day of the Bay Area Xanga meet, hosted by sonychak!  We will be hanging out in San Fransisco area on this day, including a tour of Alcatraz Island.  Fun stuff!  This will also be the last night I’ll be sleeping over the hotel.
Tuesday and Wednesday, Dec 29th-Dec 30th: Visiting family in Sacramento.  Slight chance that meowmeowkimmaee will join me?  *cross finger*
Thursday, Dec 31st: Back on Oakland for the final full day here in California.  Don’t know what I’ll be doing yet except attending a big family dinner that night.  Hmm, I suppose I’ll be ringing in the new year with them too.
Friday, Jan 1st:  Fly home to Maryland.

To say I’m very excited for this trip would be an understatement

While I’m on the subject of meet ups, the DMV (DC/MD/VA) meet up on Sunday, January 10th will be in Annapolis, MD this time around instead of DC.  TheCheshireGrins and I are coordinating this, so stay tuned with her for future updates!  The last meet up was amazing, so I expect the same from this one.  If you live close by but have some traveling issues let me know; perhaps we can work something out.  Who wants to come?

Oh, remember how I said I wouldn’t be able to do another XangaSecret update this weekend because of the trip?  Well, I lied.  Expect at least another volume this coming Sunday.  Who knows, if I’m feeling super ambitious I might post up two.

One last thing.  Remember the commercial I made?  I forgot I had recorded a trial run through of that with my brother standing in for me.  I just found the footage on my camcorder, so I want to share it.  My little brother is SUCH a ham:

Sure changes the vibe of the video huh?

Anyway, I need to pack.  Happy Holidays everyone!

Wow, us Xangans sure have a lot of secrets!  At time of writing this, I’ve received 90+ secrets and counting.  I will definitely have enough secrets to make many more videos in the future, so this will indeed be a regular thing I’ll be doing from now on.

I will attempt to make a video every week.  Since I’ll be on vacation next week, I decided I will bring you all not one, but two videos this week!  Between the two videos, I handpicked 40 secrets to be showcased in video form to music created by theacematt2 (download his music albums for free here).  Don’t fret if you submitted a secret but didn’t see it today.  I’m keeping track of all the secrets that have been sent in, so your secret may very well appear in the next installment (trust me, I’m saving some of the really good ones for next time!).

Since this is a continuous project I’m working on, feel free to keep on sending in secrets to me.  If you don’t know how to submit a secret, please refer back to the original entry for instructions.  You can either leave your anonymous secret on this entry or on the original one.

Alright, here we go!

P.S.  If I see a good reply to any of the secrets featured, I will highlight them by posting those comments along side the comments already listed below.  Enjoy the videos!

XangaSecret Volume I

RE: Xanga makes me feel so Asian (I’m White)

“i used to think xanga was only for asians.” -Anonymous

RE: Sometimes, I’m scared to say something too incriminating on Xanga because I’m scared that I might scare off a potential romantic partner. It’s not the reason I’m on here, but there are nice people here, and I don’t want to scare everyone away by being too honest!

“For me, I  just don’t want to put absolutely everything about myself on here.  Otherwise, where’s the mystery?” -Alex

RE: I’m a bit jealous of everyone who has a Xanga crush. I wish I was close enough to someone on here that I could have one.

“I think I’m a bit jealous of you. It’s harder knowing you love someone and they’re all the way across the country. ” -Anonymous

XangaSecret Volume II

RE: It really irritates me when Alex (Roadlesstaken) writes stories about his unluckiness with women. If I lived anywhere near him, I’d charm him into liking me, he’s truly amazing.

“If only more girls thought like you =) .  Don’t worry, I’m more or less content with how things are right now.  It’s surprising how much you can develop on your own.” -Alex

RE: I’m a 18 year old virgin who’s desperate to lose my virginity, but can’t seem to find someone that wants to do me. So instead, I go on this adult chat thing where I’ve cybersexed with over 20 guys from ages 19-34.

“i know im not supposed to comment but i had to comment on urs.  You are beautifulll and you just havent found the right person yet…dont let the world tell you your worth based on how many guys you sleep with or even losing ur virginity.  That is something special & to be cherished.  =]  You’ll find them! message me if u ever wanna talk! =]” -BigSarah

RE: I let a Xangan buy pictures of me naked so I can afford groceries.

“Oh BLEEP, I think I know who the groceries for sexy photos was. If you read this, Miss Blank, why didn’t you ask me?! I helped you before. Sigh.” -GreekPhysique

You guys are familiar with PostSecret right?  For those that are not familiar, it’s a place where people mail in secrets anonymously on a postcard.  I absolutely love the idea, so I figured I want to do a tribute to it by doing something similar to that idea on Xanga. 

This has been done by a few people on this site before, but I want to make it an ongoing project.  I’m going to put a slight twist to it though; instead of mailing me a postcard with your secret on it, I want people to leave an anonymous comment on this post.  I will then pick my favorite ones to put in a video showcasing the secrets on top of pictures that relate to the secrets. 

To give you an idea of what I’m talking about, I made a quick demo of how it would go (FYI, only the first one is a true one from me.  The rest I made up):

Interested in helping me out?  If so, here’s how to be a part of this:

1.  Ideally, try to think of a secret (brief, if possible) that relates to Xanga in some way (i.e. the community, other Xangans, blogging, etc).  However, secrets that aren’t exactly related to Xanga are okay as well.

2.  The more unique your secret is the better!  For the most part, everything is fair game.  It can be positive or negative (hopefully more positive ones).  Please try to refrain from making cheap shots at others though.  I will only post up negative secrets directed toward any specific Xangan after I get said Xangan’s permission first. 

3.  After you have decided on a secret to share, leave an anonymous comment containing that secret on this post.  To do that, first sign off your account.  Afterward, you can go down to the comment section and leave your secret anonymously (click on the Anonymous option in the Identity section). 

4.  If you have a picture in mind that you want me to use, include that as well (either a description or a link). 

5.  Again, keep it anonymous!  Otherwise, it’s not much of a secret is it?  Don’t worry, I’ll respect your privacy.  I’m not going to try to guess who left which secret by looking at footprints. 

6.  Finally, feel free to reply to any secrets you see (you can be anonymous or not).  I may include your reply comment in the next entry as well.

That’s it!  I will post the first official XangaSecret video this Sunday.  If this project takes off, I will make a new video every week or so for your viewing pleasure.

So, if I may ask, what’s your secret?

UPDATE (08/30/10):

Check out the current volumes out now:
XangaSecret Volume I and Volume II
XangaSecret Volume III and Volume IV
XangaSecret Volume V and Volume VI
XangaSecret Volume VII
XangaSecret Volume VIII (Love and Heartache Edition)
XangaSecret Volume IX
XangaSecret Volume X (April 1st Edition)
XangaSecret Volume XI
XangaSecret Volume XII (Live at the NY Xanga Meet)
XangaSecret Volume XIII

UPDATE 04/14/11:
I saw some people recommended this post recently and I just want everyone to know this was something I did last year.  It was very successful (I think all but one or two were featured), but I have since stopped making videos…for now.  I may consider revisiting this series in the future though, so stay tuned!

Woop Woop!  Here’s a quick video to thank those that allowed my entry to win Nick’s Xanga commercial contest:

(I included people that voted for me along with someone else and people that voted for me after the deadline, even though they technically weren’t counted towards the tally =P)

Thanks again everyone!  In return, I’m planning on stopping by the pages of everyone I listed above so I can drop a comment and a mini (it’s the least I can do).  Expect a visit from me sometime soon (such a great way to procrastinate from finals, no?).  Hope everyone else is doing alright as we wind down to a much needed winter break!

P.S. I’m trying to think up a good video idea to do when I meet up with people at the Bay Area Xanga meet later this month.  Last time at the San Diego meet, I did a silly relationship skit which worked out pretty well.  Any suggestions?

P.P.S. While I’m on the topic and asking for suggestions, I’m currently collaborating with TheCheshireGrins to figure out where to meet and what to do for the third DC Xanga meet happening on January 10th.  If you’re going or are familiar with the DC area, is there anything you would recommend?  Since a good amount of people that are planning on going are from Maryland, should we make the meet up in Maryland instead?

The other day, I read a post by Kontzicles that I found myself really agreeing with apparently.  She more or less gave this advice: “if you’re a man, don’t be obvious.  If you’re a woman, be obvious.  Don’t confuse the two.”  Granted, it may not be the most fool-proof advice out there, but it really hit home for me right then.  Before I could really think about it, I recommended it and wrote a simple comment proclaiming “HELL YEAH”.  I was driving off to school right after I did all this when I thought to myself “Now, why in the world did I agree so enthusiastically to her advice?”

It all came to me over the next half hour.  In essence, I suddenly remembered the three major times I’ve gone out on a limb for a girl (such as this one) this past year, only for me to fall down hard.  Such a low batting average, huh?  I felt like I had a good chance with every one of them, seeing as they gave me certain signals that used to clue me in the past.  Instead, I got burned each time, making me become very disheartened.  I still have my romantic heart (as someone mentioned), but it’s now locked away inside of me.  It wants to come out and believe again, but I’ve learned to be very careful with it and to be skeptical and hesitant of whom to share it with.  Frankly, I’ve just grown really tired of letting someone have a piece of my heart, only for it to be dismissed so easily.  Because of that, I’ve grown…comfortable with how it is now, just me doing my own thing.  It’s not ideally where I want to be, but it works for now.

You know what’s funny though?  The solution to this problem of mine is quite simple.  It probably will take only one person, one hell of a special girl, to totally change this all around.  If I meet someone that I truly believe is worth it and is willing to go out on a limb for me, she will certainly have the keys to my heart.  I hope that someone can be obvious enough so my current skeptical, reluctant self won’t miss her. 

I wonder who it’ll turn out to be.  Whoever you are, just know I’m right here.

Mall security does not have the best reputation, which was only made worse after that Paul Blart movie came out.  I’m sure a lot of people have negative impressions of them, but I can’t help but have some respect for them despite it all.  How come?  Well, I will forever remember two memories I’ve had while at my local mall that involved mall security being badasses.  The stories I’m about to tell you may sound unbelievable, but I promise you I am not making this up.

The first memory took place when I was about 15 years old.  At the time, I was working at my mall’s Dairy Queen/Orange Julius and it was a rather slow weekday night.  As I am standing there waiting for a customer to come up, I start hearing some commotion around the corner.  Right as I lean over the counter to see what was going on, a teenage girl comes sprinting past, carrying a couple shirts.  Right behind her were two (admittingly overweight) mall security guys chasing after her.  It was looking like she might get away, and she must have thought so too since she turned her head to guage how far they were.  What she didn’t notice was the security guard directly in her upcoming path, about 10 feet away.

Guess what that security guard does?  He stuck out his arm right in front of her, essentially clotheslining her down to the floor.  I think everyone around that saw this, including me, gave a collective “OH!” (amongst other words).  The last thing I saw was the three security guards dragging this dazed girl back to the store where she stole from. 

The second memory happened a couple years later.  Now, at the mall there was this small, middle aged, female security guard that would patrol the place in an electric wheelchair.  At first glance, it looked like she was very handicapped and made me wonder what she would be able to do if forced to take some action. 

I most certainly discovered how one day, while I was window shopping with a friend.  Once again, I heard some commotion going on near by and as I turned that direction I see this man sprinting towards my general direction.  That woman security guard happened to be nearby as well.  Here’s where it got kind of crazy.  As the man came flying past us, I suddenly saw this lady straighten hereself up and leap out of her wheelchair onto her (apparently working) legs.  “Holy crap, did she just pull a Keyser Söze?!”, I thought. 

Before my brain could process it fully, she sprinted off.  Not only did she catch up to that guy (who had a healthy head start) she actually tackled him down and held him on the floor until her reinforcements came.  I’m pretty sure my mouth was still wide open as she casually got back into her wheelchair afterward and went about her business as if nothing happened. 

These two events, my friends, are why I will never underestimate mall security ever again.