band concert is over!  It went well overall…the people seem to like it.  Im so tired tho…and samara is probably even more…cant wait to spend time w/ her tomorrow…and I am one way or another haha….

samara baptism today…good for her!  haha.  afterwards was great too.  yup…

Gosh, what a disappointment this day has become…and it could have so been avoided…well im not gonna be selfish about this.  I hope she will be ok…just like grace, I hate the fact that everytime she gets sad or down my mood is directly influenced too…sigh…

ok, so i wept once again…only 3 movies ive wept in…didnt expect the last samurai to be one…haha…well today was fine…looked like samara was having a pretty good day until her mood dropped after telling me what she was thinking about.  it wasnt that bad…i guess she might think im upset over it but im really not…well she’ll be fine later…

Awesome conversation online w/ samara…

T4 Me n 04 u (12:15:13 AM): would you chase me?
mckeesamara (12:15:18 AM): o yeah
T4 Me n 04 u (12:15:26 AM): why?
mckeesamara (12:17:09 AM): cuz, i love you, and i don’t want to lose you and if we broke up, man, i would just die…well, not literally, just feels like a light would stop burning and i wouldn’t want that light to stop, and when you have even the glimpse of light, you want to keep it glowing and make it grow brighter, and that’s what it is with you and i would chase you until i get you back
T4 Me n 04 u (12:17:46 AM): ….good answer

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mckeesamara (1:12:08 AM): you know if i weren’t going out with you i’d think you’re such a flirt
mckeesamara (1:12:11 AM): well, i still think that
mckeesamara (1:12:12 AM): lol
mckeesamara (1:12:25 AM): good relationships alwayz need some flirting in it

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T4 Me n 04 u (1:35:30 AM): Samwise
mckeesamara (1:35:38 AM): you’re gonna name your kid after an elf?
mckeesamara (1:35:40 AM): hobbits?
T4 Me n 04 u (1:35:46 AM): im j/k
mckeesamara (1:35:47 AM): wtf have you been smokin?
mckeesamara (1:35:50 AM): haha…j/k
T4 Me n 04 u (1:36:08 AM): Aidan
mckeesamara (1:36:10 AM): but w/e it is you’re smokin’ i want some for my birth

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mckeesamara (2:19:45 AM): are you happy with me?
T4 Me n 04 u (2:20:02 AM): sure, why wouldnt i be
mckeesamara (2:20:08 AM): i dunno
mckeesamara (2:20:13 AM): just wonderin
T4 Me n 04 u (2:20:34 AM): how happy are you w/ me?
mckeesamara (2:21:08 AM): i’m very happy
T4 Me n 04 u (2:21:24 AM): o ok, that means i gotta work harder
mckeesamara (2:21:30 AM): i’ve been happy for the past few days cuz i spent time with you
mckeesamara (2:21:40 AM): how happy do you want me to be?
mckeesamara (2:21:52 AM): cuz i’m happier than you’ll ever know
T4 Me n 04 u (2:22:04 AM): hmm…alright
T4 Me n 04 u (2:22:12 AM): i guess that will surfice for now

yea, im so happy…

past few days has been pretty good…this weekend has been pretty laid back.  No hw except to study…o yea…

school today…ok…

after school…GGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREAT!

haha.

hw…grrrrrrrr….hope no school tomorrow…*crosses fingers*

You are not alone…I am still right here…why is this song stuck in my head gah!

Much better day…I understand a lot of things now.  Thank you kiwi too…Definitely thank you samara…

i hope the pics come in the mail tomorrow…

hmm….

I hope she doesnt think I still dont want her…

I wish she would eat more regularly and not skip meal times…

I wish that she wouldnt have to do hw til late at night…

I wish there were more hours in the day so she could have more sleep…

I hope that she will have a better attitude towards daily life and not be so down all the time…

I wish that I could always cheer her up…instead of the opposite…

I wish I could hold her right now and tell her everything is alright…