December 28, 2009
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XangaSecret: Volume III & Volume IV
Yep, two more volumes this week! There’s just too many secrets that were sent in. After this week, I will bring it down to one volume per entry. Please don’t hesitate to leave me some more anonymous secrets I can showcase for future editions down below. For more information on how to submit a secret and how this all works, check out the previous XangaSecret entries:
What’s Your XangaSecret?
XangaSecret: Volume I and Volume IIEnjoy reading the following collection of secrets given by your fellow Xangans:
XangaSecret Volume III
XangaSecret Volume IV
RE: Sometimes, I think of ways to kill my niece!!! I’m a horrible person.“you’re not alone…” -DiaryOfAPsychopath
RE: I think I’m in love with a 23-year-old man who found me through Xanga, looked up my name on Facebook, Facebook-friended me, and then said hi over AIM. I now chat with him ever single day. I’m 15 years old.
“I’ve been in the same situation [except we didn't meet through Xanga]. I’m 17 now, and we’re still friends. We’re just waiting until I turn 18 to consider any possibilities. So, have faith!” -Imnotcrazyjustinsane
“Just be careful. Don’t f**k up your life by talking to a guy who’s 8 years older than you that you have never met… Even if he is real, the difference in age will be a real barrier. Just be careful, please… think about what you’re doing.
I just had to say something because I’m super concerned for you… I did something similar at 15 and didn’t realize til later that the guy treated me like s**t. Don’t want you to go thru that.
” -Anonymous (Laury)
RE: I met a Xangan IRL. I thought he was cool online, but now I think he’s a pervert and might even be a pedophile.“I wonder if that pedobear slide was the next part of the 15 yr old and 23 yr old’s story.” -striemmy
Comments (177)
ha, is that a picture of a pedobear?
wow. some are of them are so sad and scandalous. cool project.
You did a great job.
Once again, a fabulous post. You are awesome.
To the person who thinks about killing their niece, you’re not alone…
these satisfied my postsecret craving from earlier haha. most of these are so shocking and x__x surprising.
GAHHHH i hate fighting for the computer with you XD
jk.
Some of those secrets are just heartbreaking.
what comes around goes around
Wow…
:]
thanks for coming out today.
I’m next to you right now!
Bravo.
so. much. to. read.
i have yet to think of a secret.
These are so addictive!
wow. some are really…serious
PEDO BEAR!!
Love it!! You do such a great job of choosing the pics to go along with the secrets…I’m impressed!!
Thanks Alex.
These are some hardcore secrets.
these were great.. i enjoyed this. thanks for making my life interesting again
haha damn did you make this after i dropped you off?
I found most of these to be sad and childish. However, I think some of them are awesome and thank the xangans who shared.
Lol @ the pual slide.
I wonder if that pedobear slide was the next part of the 15 yr old and 23 yr old’s story.
woooowwwwww….. @_@….good good work ..hahahahamoremore!!
I am 5’9″ and weigh just over 100 lbs. Xanga makes me hate my body.
Once again, you did an awesome job.
Nice
I have found another blog to read from the videos
Wow, Alex, this is great! I’m really glad you started a Xanga post secret
I hope you’re having an excellent time in California.
It’s not that hard to figure out a few of these you know. I pegged about 9 or 10 I think.
I didn’t even see this until a few minutes ago…yet found myself identifying with a couple of those secrets. Lol.
Anyhow, amazing job!
@DiaryOfAPsychopath - What, you dream about killing that person’s niece too?
And where are “not Rob of the Sky”‘s secrets? They were the best secrets of the bunch.
This is a really neat idea and makes for an interesting read. Some are really funny and others are pretty sad. I think I can relate to some. Anyway, keep up the good work and I love the music you’ve added to all of them.
this is awesome! LOL at the 4th volume about wherethefishlives!! XDDD I was really excited when he comment me back on facebook. hahahah fangirlism!! XD
awesome once again
Juicy stuff. I love the pictures you put with them. They really match!
Wow, these are great… How many more volumes are left?
@TheBigShowAtUD - why yes it is
@falconfraudless - yes, it’s crazy all there is to tell!
@DiaryOfAPsychopath - I think we all sometimes think up those things. It’s normal, as long as don’t seriously act on it or something.
@Asianrockgurl - glad it did
@snapeful - You’re so wasted right now *looks over* yep.
@crazy2love - tell me about it
@mncjl - read read read!
@ordinary_gir1 - are you buddies with him?
@hubbaduh - it takes time, but it’s kinda fun picking out stuff. I have be very creative on some of them.
@SimplyNita - which were the best?
@anth0nyc - I’m glad you enjoyed it a lot. Stay tuned for more in the near future!
@sonychak - nah, they were already made. Just finally made the post.
@striemmy - hmm, very interesting theory. Who knows? Yeah, I had to be creative thinking up a picture for that masturbating one without it being X rated haha
@Wangium - oh who?
@vaguely_nameless - Oh I am. Oh, Flip mentioned you earlier!
@Da__Vinci - really? Can you tell me some of your guesses?
@Rob_of_the_Sky - Saving them for the best of the best edition.
@StrewnOutinDisarray - thanks, have you checked out the Xangan that makes the music? He has his two albums for free download.
@Got_Takoyaki - he’s a really cool guy. Glad he’s around.
@Meowmeowkimmaee - Thanks! Took some time, but totally worth it.
@mZdejavuZ - At least 3 more, more as long as there’s more secrets sent in!
@Roadlesstaken - Oh? What did he say? Is he one of the people you’ve been meeting up with these last couple of days?
@Roadlesstaken -
… Awesome… I can’t wait… Great job, btw.
so true.
Nice!
Nice.
These are soo good xD
@Rob_of_the_Sky - I DO think about killing their niece… nieces in general annoy me. Just the word annoys me. (:
wow you did a super awesome job with this… i think i enjoyed the video and music more than the actual secrets
…maybe you should re-think the whole psychology thing and get into video making (or whatever it would be called lol) …of course, you’ll need theacematt2 for the music, don’t forget that :) …again, super awesome!
People don’t always sense it but I’m paranoid. Even one tiny thing they say that could potentially be misconstrued, and I’m daydreaming about them secretly plotting to hurt me and thinking of back-up ways to save my life against them or potentially bust them on talking behind my back, even if they’re my closest friends.
Some of these are really intense. It’s compelling, in a voyeuristic way… and kinda makes me feel perverse watching this, heh. Interesting social experiment though.
I think you get more done in 24 hours than a normal human being. Nice job pairing the music, with the pictures and the secrets.
Awesome. I like reading these. (=
Wow, interesting. Getting some pretty compelling secrets, too. I await the next volume(s).
Hmm mine got on. I feel slightly accomplished. haha.
great stuff man i love some of the secrets
I feel honored to be part of someone’s secret!
@Roadlesstaken - No, but I think I’ll do that soon. =)
Whoa. Some of these secrets are just… whoa.
I watched these while at work so I had a million interruptions. ( Well there’s MY secret – I sometimes resent when work related responsibilities interrupt my xanga time
) You both did a great job putting these together. The video and music make reading the secrets so much fun!
Hello, here are my secrets:
I wouldnt of seen this christmas if it wasnt for you, thank you xangarians.
My xanga friends helped me come to terms with my rape.
Before xanga, I never used to starve myself.
Xanga made me feel normal.
My life is xanga. The life i’m mean to live.
I hate reading about blogs on self harm. It makes me relapse. But the blogs make me feel like someone else in the world understands me.
I’m also a penpal to some people on xanga. In the letters we talk about how great it would be to be a cult leader like Charles Manson!
That one comment you left me took away my confidence to blog for a month. I hate you.
When I dont get any comments, I feel like no ones cares. It makes me feel worse that I’ve stopped writing for pleasure and started writing for others.
The closest friends to me are the ones that are the futhest.
I once adored a sex addict and drug addict. He like philosophy and cocaine. He nourished my intellectual desires and I withdrew the truth about my age so that he would consider me an equal. Last summer, he got arrested. I was supposed to meet him and discuss the reason, but the day of I failed to respond to his messages. I have leapt in and out of his life the entirety of our friendship. He told me that this would be my final chance, and I was too cowardly to face it. I’m afraid he might kill himself and we will never reunite. He has absolutely nothing.
Hello, here are my secrets:
I wouldnt of seen this christmas if it wasnt for you, thank you xangarians.
My xanga friends helped me come to terms with my rape.
Before xanga, I never used to starve myself.
Xanga made me feel normal.
I hate reading about blogs on self harm. It makes me relapse. But the blogs make me feel like someone else in the world understands me.
I’m also a penpal to some people on xanga. In the letters we talk about how great it would be to be a cult leader like Charles Manson.
That one comment you left me took away my confidence to blog for a month. I hate you.
When I dont get any comments, I feel like no ones cares. It makes me feel worse that I’ve stopped writing for pleasure and started writing for others.
The closest friends to me are the ones that are the futhest.
I liked you better when you was on xanga.
I’m a human being, with real feelings, with real blogs. I’m not okay, nor am I you’re councellor.
I decided to post my comment again without anonymity. Today is the day I decide not to run from my secrets. But to face them.
Some of these are heartbreaking…some of them are quite awesome. Wish I had a cool secret to share
Is it wrong for me to be amused that secret about homosexuality has a picture of Harry Potter? What are you trying to say Alex? ;P
So interesting how people have made so many connections with other Xangans.
I really love this!!!
I should really congratulate him on his engagement but I just cannot get over the fact that it’s an arranged marriage, and I just cannot bring myself to accept that things didn’t turn out the way I thought they would.
If I wasn’t in a relationship, I would be willing to sleep with pretty much anyone.
HAHAHA I LOVE IT!
I admit… after reading all four of these my final consensus is: I feel less alone. Thanks for doing these….
Here’s another secret for the best-of video: I am stalking Rob of the Sky and keep up with his updates. Lo and behold, he updated earlier this evening.
@Rob_of_the_Sky - i secretly disagree with that… hahaha….
@maniacsicko - How does notmaniacsicko feel about that?
@Rob_of_the_Sky - i think he must be baffled by your statement… and i think definitelynotmaniacsicko is even more baffled, and chocked to death laughing… haha… since when you switch from futurama to simpson, by the way?i missed that, i think…
I hate the way I have so many secrets, over just one website.
I had a weightloss xanga for 3 years that had over 600 subscribers and even more “friends.” I deleted it a few weeks ago because I gained weight and was too ashamed to tell my skinny friends. I never told anybody I knew IRL.
The first video in this post was cooler than the second.
Anyway, I still love looking at them.
And…I still haven’t seen my secret. Haha. It can wait. I think I’ll put in another one. I hope no one can guess my name.
wow!
cool!
I wish I could paint like CrazyKey123. I also wish I had her hair.
Dear Alex,
I hoped I could go to the Xanga meetup but financial straights caused me to have to stay home. Maybe someday we’ll have one in Los Angeles.
As usual, these are wonderful. I’ve only watched the first one (or the 4th one) so far, but I add my recommendation to the 36 already posted for this entry.
I can’t help but wonder what would happen if you went postal one day and revealed the identity of all these secretive Xangans. (I checked the “annotations” to see if you’d “secretly” posted their usernames. Muahhaha.)
You are to be congratulated. This is the best “Xanga project” I’ve seen in a long time. And it’s neat that you post and entry when you’re otherwise engaged. Have fun at the meetup.
Michael F. Nyiri, poet, philosopher, fool
Very nice.
Good stuff!
Wishing you a happy and healthy New Year!
Major love. These are so pretty and so heartbreaking.
@secretxanga - I have e.d friends and they make me feel like i have to be skinny or im not accepted!
whoa you made it on the featured weblogs thing lol congrats!
Justin
whoa! you made it on the featured weblogs! congrats!
Justin
I tell him I support his love and would be thrilled if he was able to date the girl he’s in love with, but I actually hate that idea. We’re best friends, but I wish we could be more. I wish just once he’d choose me over her. They’ve never even gone on a date. Why am I not enough? I really hope she gets a boyfriend soon so his heart will break. Then maybe I can pick up the pieces.
great job! super looking forward for the coming volumes
i was almost hesitant in clicking the link. must have took you ages to find the corresponding pictures. these actually gave more depth to the people behind xanga.
In the second video, someone said they didn’t know they lost their virginity.
How the hell is that even possible?? lmfao.
you always think up and do the best xanga-themed creative projects
great job!
Some secrets are naive and sweet, others are sad and disturbing.
LOL, what does Harry Potter have to do with being secretly gay? Guess I better watch the movies again.
Happy New Year!
Wow. Sorry if I sound obnoxiously intellectual but . . .what a very interesting glimpse of the human condition.
Some of those were intense. Great compilation work on those.
lol
Some of these are so sad.
Another great post.
@tequila_sky - good secrets were everywhere!
@Peridot21 - If I could make a living that way I totally would haha. For now, it’ll just be a fun hobby for me.
@nimbusthedragon - I know right? It’s like we’re getting a chance to hear thoughts we wouldn’t otherwise hear.
@ElusiveWords - thanks! Eh, I’m about as busy as the next person =P
@xchinkylaydee - Glad you do. Btw, it was wonderful meeting up with you the other day.
@XMechanicalxRainX - Hmmm, I wonder which one it is now.
@lCrAzYAzNl - Just some?? j/k
@wherethefishlives - It was definitely a feel good secret
@Manstration - which one got your attention the most?
@ItsWhatEyeKnow - It’s a pleasure distracting you from work ^_^
@SophieShitfxce - More power to you!
@firetyger - you probably do. I think we all have something if you look deep enough.
@karen0z - haha, well that picture was the one given by the person who gave me the secret =P
@seriously_meredith - @bamzilicious26 - glad you think so!
@Passionflwr86 - No problem. What you just said could probably be turn into a good secret in of itself…
@c_jamaica - really? I thought I put in the one that was yours…hmm, I suppose I was wrong then.
@baabaaboos - @on_call247 - @TheRiverIsEverywhere - @sle21408 - @emily_shannon - thanks!
@baldmike2004 - I think there’s actually gonna be a LA meet next month! Check up with flipguy31O about that. Nah, I have no clue who wrote the majority of the secrets since they were sent in to me anonymously. Even if I did, I can break my promise of revealing who left which secrets. Thanks again, your comments are great as always!
@Jennelle - thanks, you too!
@ehs_swimmer2007 - It’s pretty cool
@timestill - I’m curious, what made you hesitant?
@Venca - haha I actually didn’t catch that until after I made the video. My guess is that she meant it another way and just made a grammar mistake.
@animaeariesgirl - aww, I appreciate that!
@Wild_and_Wicked - Indeed. That’s probably why they’re secrets that haven’t been revealed until now.
@CareyGLY - It was the picture given to me by the person who wrote it! haha
@Bodhiseeker - it is. Nah, you don’t sound obnoxious
@ccarothers - I know, tell me about it. I think the next volume has some of the most intense stuff yet.
@DreamFaerye - thank you
@Roadlesstaken - that’s a very good question to ask. the thumbnail of the video appeared a little cheesy (that blocky outlined font, and the picture), but I looked past that once it was clicked on. yeah, im still not too fond of the blocky fonts.
@timestill - The reason I chose those blocky fonts is because the thinner ones makes it very hard to see on top of some of the pictures =(
Amazing job. Some of these… make my face cringe, haha.
Alex, I think you’re cute & definitely have a crush on you. I read almost every entry that you post… but I have not commented you yet. I’m embarrassed to say anything stupid and I’m also afraid that you won’t reply… /:
homosexuality = harry potter? LOL
What are the songs in both of the videos?
He cheated on me years ago, but if he were to ask that I take him back, I’d do it in less than a heart beat.
I still write for him on my blog from time to time, hoping for the occasional drop ins that he might anonymously make, so that all the feelings he’s ever had for me come back, just so he would come back to me. It’s been years, but I haven’t given up hope yet.
nothing wrong with clicking on a hot person profile… lol
@jesuismir - lol yeah i saw that too… i didnt know!?!
@S85456O - Oh yeah, like which ones in particular?
@anonymous. - I don’t bite
. I welcome your comments when you’re ready.
@jesuismir - @shake_things_up - That picture was the one given to me for that secret haha.
@LausnesElam - Both songs were from theacematt2′s CDs (free download btw). Did you want the specific titles? If so, let me know and I’ll tell you then when I get back home after the new year.
@fancy_feb - That’s for sure. I love my Xangans =)
Maybe the one about the sibling thing how they were naked and kissed. Oh my. Haha.
Oh my… Pedobear.
Anyways!
To the 15yo who’s in love with the 23yo, well, I’ve been in the same situation [except we didn't meet through Xanga]. I’m 17 now, and we’re still friends. We’re just waiting until I turn 18 to consider any possibilities. So, have faith!
cool! thanks for doing this.
@jesuismir - i laughed when i saw that, too.
You met him on Xanga
he may be your “boyfriend”
but I’ve actually met him.
I used a fake name in the Anonymous Identity box.
Im in love with Sake_tatsuyo, Sake, I’m sorry i never comment on your posts.
My secret is that I’m too paranoid to post secrets on the internet. My grandfather used to say that if you wanted to keep a secret you needed two things – a deep well and a good friend. You tell the secret to your friend and then thow him down the well.
I really love your xanga secrets videos! To tell you the truth your first xanga videos (vol I and II)
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kind of helped me decide to make a xanga. I’ve wanted to make one for years but for some
reason I never did. I dont regret the decision. So thank you
Every single post I make on here is for one person, who doesn’t care about me. I will make sure he has visited my site since my last entry before posting a new one.
@Roadlesstaken - it was cool meeting you too. (=
I once cheated on my girlfriend. She never found out. We’re still dating. I feel guilty everyday, but I can’t tell her for fear that she’ll leave me.
I secretly wish that my ex would tell me that he feels the same way about me as I do him. We were married but it ended because we were stationed in two different places and never saw each other. I still miss him and wish that we would get back together…
To the 15 year old talking to the 23 year old man… just be careful. Don’t fuck up your life by talking to a guy who’s 8 years older than you that you have never met… Even if he is real, the difference in age will be a real barrier. Just be careful, please… think about what you’re doing.
I just had to say something because I’m super concerned for you… I did something similar at 15 and didn’t realize til later that the guy treated me like shit. Don’t want you to go thru that.
@onetwothree - I feel the same way!
I have two… you can use either or both, if you’d like. [below v]
My best guy friend has Dissociative Identity Disorder. Some days, I just search Xanga to see if I can find someone else who is experiencing the same thing I am. (And by the way… I wouldn’t change who is is for the world…
Okay… apparently, the other one didn’t post. @_@ Along with part of my last secret… a heart and closing parentheses. xP
Second secret: Even though I’m more confidant in myself now, part of me is still afraid I’m going to be publicly mocked for not being the thin girl most guys would like…
hahaa
this is pretty cool!
i’m infatuated with xanga. not for the blogging or layout-making, but for popularity. yes, i want to be popular!
I LOVE IT! It’s better than post secret =D
I’m in love with a boy I met through Xanga… sometimes I think he feels the same way, but sometimes it feels like I’m just being used. We’ve met, started talking, stopped talking, reconnected again, had sex, etc. it’s been almost 4 years on and off… but whenever I think about it, I’m never really sure why I like him… I just like the way he makes me smile.
Thanks fopr sharing:)
@x3style - glad you enjoy it!
@PeaceSearcher - no problemo
@Imnotcrazyjustinsane - people sure notice pedobear. Guess that was a good choice.
@MissPixieGlitter - no problem, it’s an enjoyable project
@morrighu - now that one sure way to keep a secret O_o
@SacredWriter - Oh wow, seriously? That’s amazing and I feel honored to have been an influence on your decision to join. Hope you enjoy it here!
@Roadlesstaken - yup seriously
and I have been enjoying it very much so far I find myself logging in everyday I think the addiction has started LOl
my secret:
I’ve been a xangan’s dirty whore for five years and am also in love with him. He doesn’t love me back and wants to leave me for someone else. On top of that, we’re practically neighbors. my family and friends absolutely loves him and fate just loves to bring us together. The worst part? no one knows about this and I’m breaking inside but I can’t tell anyone because if anyone found out about our used to and still maybe but never forever relationship, I would be eternally shamed.
great work.
Im not pissed of your with her. I’m pissed of your happy. && I HAVE to read about it ¬_¬
PEDO BEAR!!! No seriously tho, that one with the 15 year old in love with the stalker…that’s just creepy man.
Yeah this was great. Some you can even relate to.
Cali! Niceee.
I love how the pictures coincide with the secrets.
And I think the pervert/pedophile’s Xanga handle should be revealed to warn others! Anyhow, let this be a lesson, kiddos! Appearances can be deceiving..all the mystery that allures people into crushing on randoms they’ve never met IRL (unfortunately, I know from personal experience) can come shattering to an abrupt end upon F2F meetups…or not. Just be aware and safe if/when you do..and yes, I am mother to all.
pretty interesting
it motivated me to want to comment on people’s blogs more often
You put a lot of work into these. Very impressive, Alex!
These are probably the neatest things I’ve ever seen! Lol.
They’re so cool. I’ll definately be looking through all the volumes now. =3
@Mr_Jin - yeah, I hope she’s careful with that.
@Shopgirl0393 - yes mother! Haha yes, just be careful and smart when you meet people. So far that’s what I’ve been doing and it’s been good.
@my_greenthought - awesome! You never know how just one comment can influence someone.
@runaheadofme - it wasn’t too much work I think. All the work I did do was worth it though!
@thin_for_the_win - shouldnt take too long since there’s only four right now haha. Stay tuned for the fifth one next week!
these are amazing!
(: these make me feel a lot less crazy about having an XC. ;]
Really cool! As one who has secrets and posts them on the internet for all to read (without ever talking to my husband about them), I can say that sharing our secrets is a really great outlet…Sharing them with someone we love is way better and maybe I will have the courage to share more of them someday.
Wow that was really great… So many emotions ran through those I don’t really know what to think hah.
I would have sent mine in but I was absent from Xanga at the time
@hotpinkstarberry - never too late to send in more!
This is my Xanga Secret (:
And one of my secret Xangas.
Very cool, I love PostSecret and this is right up there with it nice work
I like how many Xanga-related secrets there are. I thought there wouldn’t be many good ones, but I was wrong.
@hotpinkstarberry - This is an ongoing project, so feel free to send me your secret whenever you can!
@MadCityChick10 - Thanks, I try to do PostSecret justice
@BarniganFlarn - I felt that way to initially. I was wondering just how many secrets can there possibly be? Boy was I surprised.
@phosphor_stars - You’re still crazy. j/k
@biggestloser2010 - feel free to share some of your secrets anonymously here
@starwisher05 - That’s a good thing then, no?
I’ve been having flashbacks of myself in Tang Dynasty China, Tokugawa Japan, and Vienna under Nazi rule. Either I should start believing in reincarnation or see a doctor.
Hi.. Came across your blog because RestlessButterfly thought someone I posted on my blog reminded her of you.
Cool idea of posting Xangans’ secrets like that.
Cooolsies. =)
@Novietaaa - Ah, just saw it. That’s kinda funny how she would be reminded of me from watching that video. I wonder if that’s a good thing XP
@Roadlesstaken - I’m sure it is, as I’m totally in love with that lil fella! hahaha
Secret: I only write letters on my xanga to my ex xangan/real life lover.
These are awesome…great job!
I met a Xangan. I should’ve kissed him when I had the chance.
I’m afraid of posting up a profile picture because I don’t want to get contacted by people looking for a relationship. My xanga gets stalked sporadicaly by someone from my past, but someone I’ve never meet and only known through an internet message board 5 years ago. That person has played 5 girls at once through the internet then disappeared. It hurts to first trust someone and then see them through another face. I hate that this person even has the nerve to read my personal writing, and even come near me by dwelling through my entries. This is also why I refrain from showing face.
image: you choose
http://i613.photobucket.com/albums/tt220/lovehaterawr/beautiful.jpg
http://i437.photobucket.com/albums/qq91/Almost_An_Echo/Hiru1.jpg
I think we all love you.
Excellent job yet again! The image backgrounds you use are always so fitting, and the text matches, too. I enjoy watching these videos. Thanks for the time you put into them!
@FreeeVerse - @decembriel - Thanks! I just posted up Vol V and Vol VI, so feel free to check that out =)
wow. just amazing.
You’ve done some interesting things here, well done.
@TimeLostMeaning - Thanks, stay tuned for a new volume coming up this weekend!
love it
Once again, awesome work!
wow nice job
Some of those were really sad, and then others (like the Hilary one) made me giggle just a bit. =P
It’s amazing how many of them are things that have gone through my mind at some point in time or another too.
@Rhia_Pyrithea - Hehe, the Hilary one was one of my faves.