September 24, 2008

• I dream a lot.

  I also remember a lot dreams when I wake up, but then I forget about them after a day or so.  Last night I had a pretty long and detailed dream that I can still remember.  It was very interesting and I feel like putting it down somewhere.  I think from now on I’m gonna start writing down my dreams on here, sorta like a dream journal, just for funsies.  Hmm how should I start..

  I start off walking in a city I think.  I’m figure I was just visiting because I’m constantly looking around trying to find something.  I walk by a coffee shop when something catches my eye on the TV in there.  I take a closer look and I see someone very familiar, someone I know personally.  (Note:  In my dreams I “remember” previous memories that are real to me in the dream, but aren’t actually real…you know what I mean?  Yea it’s odd I know.) 

  I try to remember who this girl is and I come to the conclusion that it’s someone I used to love, but have since broken up with.  She looked so beautiful on screen, kinda the same but kinda different from what I remembered.  She looked skinnier and her skin was pale but beautiful.  She also apparently dyed her hair a reddish color and it’s long, like it was in high school.  Nonetheless she was gorgeous in my eyes.  She actually made it as a tv star, just like she always wanted, I thought to myself, and I was very happy for her at that moment.

  Suddenly the scene changes and I’m at somebody’s mansion.  It’s huge and it even had it own restaurant, which was where I was sitting.  That girl appears out of the shadows out of nowhere, surprising me.  While I was still trying to figure out what emotion to feel, the girl already had an upset expression on her face. 

  “Why are you still thinking of me?  Why are you still sad?”  she half asked and yelled at me.

  I’m really confused on why she just asked me that, but figured I somehow wrote something about her somewhere and she was not happy that after all this time, she was still somewhat on my mind.  However, she didn’t seem to realized that even though she may be on my mind, I have gotten over her a while ago.  I was speechless for a long time before I made a emotional remark back to her. 

  “Look, I don’t know why alright?  Maybe it’s because you were able to fall in love so quickly after we broke up that bothered me so much!  How is it that you could move on so easily?”

  Her face suddenly changed from anger to sad, and she excused herself as she walked out the room.  I’m standing there for some time thinking about how I got here, when I hear a phone ring.  It’s not my phone, but her phone that she had accidentally left on a desk near me.  I picked it up and the person on the line asked for Claire (Yea, apparently the girl’s name is Claire.  I don’t even know a Claire in real life…too much Heroes me think haha).

  I wander around the mansion trying to find Claire and after a while I manage to finally find her room.  She sitting in the middle of her king size bed with her arms wrapped around her knees weeping.  “Hey Claire, someone called you” was all I could say.  She suddenly notices me and quickly wiped away her tears.  She faked a smile as I hand her the phone.  It was very awkward being in her room.  I really don’t want to see any pictures of her and her new love, I thought, so I tried to hurry out of the room when a picture frame catches my eye.  It was a small picture, but it was a picture of someone I wasn’t expecting; me.  I put the picture frame down and, after a bit of a hesitation (and with what I thought was a Lifehouse song playing in the background, oddly enough), I walked away from the room, and her, without looking back.  I just kept walking and walking away for the longest time…

  And then I woke up.  As I turned on the tv to energize myself enough to get out of bed, guess what music video is playing on VH1?

  
  Me and my weird dreams.

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