Looking around, I wonder if loneliness hit us single people all around the same time. It can definitely catch you off guard that's for sure. Here I am, minding my own independent business and content as can be, when BAM! Suddenly, something comes waltzing by to remind me what I'm missing out on.
In my case, I was watching
The Spare, a short story by
Wong Fu Productions. For those that haven't seen it, it captures a HK couple's last moments together before the guy leaves for school in the US for a year. Seeing how sad and concerned the girl was brought back good memories from my past of a time when my (then) girlfriend felt the same ways about me. It's these types of reminders that makes me question what happen to my so called "mojo" I had a few years back when I found myself in almost back-to-back relationships. I used to think it was so easy to meet a good girl, but now I understand I took that for granted. If only that mojo can come back to me, now that I'm older and wiser!
Oh love. It's a feeling I haven't had a chance to really experience in nearly two years now. Believe me, I've tried to find it again and I did meet random potentials since then, but nothing concrete. I occasionally worry that one day I'll just forget how love feels and become numb to it all, as silly as that sounds. Oh, what a wonderful feeling it was! Knowing that someone cared for me so deeply brought me so much happiness. Unfortunately, those memories becomes a greater struggle to hold on to with each passing day. It's for that reason why I'm writing those thoughts down here, as a way to remind myself what I'm ultimately striving for.
Like I've said many times over this past year, I've gotten used to being single and have even come to enjoy the lifestyle. I'm pretty sure that in a couple days or so, that lonesome feeling that's currently with me will go away and I'll be content with my single status once more. Still, I'm uncertain how many more rounds I can keep up with loneliness before it overtakes me. Hopefully, someone wonderful will pop into my life before then to make that issue obsolete.
Until that lucky moment, I'll just have to soldier on.
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That's the reason alcohol exists. WHEN YOU DOWN A SHOT, THE BITTERNESS SHOWS YOU HOW BITTER LIFE CAN BE. Kidding... Sort of.
Okay, I really should say something more constructive but really, all you can do is focus on your studies and work. Hope you can combat the seductive arms of emo reminiscing!
oh that short film is so cute.
^_^ My last relationship ended 6 months ago, I'm glad it did, but my last serious relationship ended 2 years ago. I said I love you in my past relationships before the most recent but now I don't think I was every truely in love, how can I tell from stupid high school relationships that I rushed into anyway? Now that's I've started college I have been getting more attention from guys, but not the kind I want and sometimes I just wanna stay single...but then loneliness hits me but I shrug it off because I'm "too young" to be depressed about love lol. But, I honestly believe that you are a wonderful person and you will find someone. I know you will. it's funny though because I feel like I know so much about your character and I only read your blogs so if that's the case, I'm sure a girl you'll meet in public will notice that and more, and be hooked ^_^, maybe not now, but someday.
ok i'm not even gonna watch the video... i don't need the extra sad ;) ...but yeah, i totally know what you mean... it deff comes and, thankfully, goes like that for me too...
I love Wong Fu Productions!
But anywho, I see what you mean. Finding the right person is so difficult and even though being single is nice, having someone there is nicer. You'll find the right person soon. No worries :D
Aww that was such a cute little video.
But yeah, just keep truckin' along, I guess! That's all any of us can do.
Awww, thanks for spreading the lonely feelings
, just kidding, half way. :)
It seems to like love is something built into you that I don't think time or prolonged singleness can wear out. If anything, just find a few gooey song and sing and dance to them, maybe they'll help re-enliven you ;).
^Agreed. It has been an exceptionally long time.
Being comfortable with being on your own is a good step. Enjoy it.
Relationships come when you least expect it, you can't control that but you can be open to it in other ways ie being friendly, getting to know others, being interested in what others bring to your life, etc. Those little details move you forward to the bigger moments.
@snapeful - damn that emo reminiscing!
@elelkewljay - The prequel to it is almost as good
@RaquelHiggins005 - Thanks for the encouraging words. Help me find said girl =P
@Peridot21 - It's like a cycle. Just gotta wait it out..until the next time it hits me. Ahhh
@CatherineMarshmallow - If only I can pinpoint how soon is soon. Would make things easier!
@just_the_average_jane - Yup yup. Hopefully I don't run out of gas (lame metaphor)
@phosphor_stars - I think I believe that too. I just noticed that I haven't been seeing my past love experiences as clearly as I used to, so it makes me wonder how much of that memory is still with me.
I know what you mean but you have to remember that you were a different person when you "fell in love" back then. It'll be a different experience again when you fall again this time. Hopefully with a smarter and realistic head. :)
@Roadlesstaken - Ahhh ...exactly.
like snapful said....focus on study ! lol.......then after study and a job then you can find loveeeeeeeeeeeee :P
@Roadlesstaken - go to a psychic! They could be able to tell you! :D but that may cost lots of money and they would be wrong. or make a time machine! :P
Oh that reminds me, I gotta go buy a toothbrush too ;)
@Roadlesstaken - Here I was thinking you were a good boy who never swore! You need to watch your mouth young man, especially in front of female company, which your blog mysteriously seems to attract an excess of; I'm jealous. Okay well not really, I just didn't want to end my sentence with a preposition.
Imagine being 27 and single and having people constantly making you feel like something is wrong with you for being single. I'd like to think that everyone's "moment" (finding the one) comes earlier for some and later for others. Be patient :)
I feel this way too. For the most part I am pretty comfortable and enjoy being single, but every so often I see something that reminds me of those spectacular parts of relationships that I am currently missing out on. Shucks. I'd have to agree with RaquelHiggins005, even though I only know you through your blogs, I know you'll find someone amazing because you seem like such a terrific person. I hope you find someone special soon though, the waiting is never fun.
I do find that with the transition of the seasons more people seem to be more down about being single. Rather, they express it more... maybe it's the 'appropriate time' to do so, I have no idea. But you're not jaded at all and you're still hopeful which is a good thing. And don't they say that just when you thought all hope was lost, everything changes? So yeah, something will change for you and it'll come at the most unexpected time... so you just have to be ready.
i think people fall in love every day. you can fall in love with a boy
who held the door open for you on a rainy day. or a boy who smiled at
you on the train back home. of course in your case it would be a girl
:) i sometimes feel like people put too much emphasis on finding that
"perfect" or "true" love and miss out on the much smaller degrees of
love that happen every day of our lives. stop looking for it. it'll
come slamming into you someday.
it's a lot harder to meet compatible ppl after college. I've been having boughts of loneliness lately as well, but I've been trying to throw those feelings to the side.
I bet you still have that "mojo," but subconsciously hide it. You did say you're older and wiser now; maybe you'd just rather spend effort into finding the right person than a person. =] Stay optimistic! Life's more fun that way =).
Woo! I've seen that video so many times. ^_^ I've been single all my life and I don't understand why people complain. :P But I don't understand what it's like to be in a relationship. Be optimistic. You'll find someone when you least expect it. : )
don't worry, a great guy like you is bound to find the love of your life soon. :)
@xLove_Me_Alwaysx - are you talking about yourself or me?
@Parsimony - Yup yup, I've definitely done my fair share of that over these 2 years. I've gotten more connected with others, but still yearn for this particular connection.
@Agent_Eric - Hopefully right? I know I won't take that future person for granted this time around!
@nomilktoday - ah, but if I find love now I have a strong support for when I deal with the stresses with work and school! =D
@CatherineMarshmallow - I've been meaning to try out a psychic. Too bad I don't really buy that it works.
@strawberries_and_honey - well, I'm glad to be of service haha
@snapeful - Haha, I don't really cuss, but I occasionally say those minor cusses. How vanilla do you think I am??